Is it normal to feel/become so much more egotistic/self-absorbed (maybe become more aware about how egotistical you already are?) on acid? Is it possible to minimise or outright prevent those tendencies, during trips (or even just in day to day life)? I love almost everything about acid experiences except those ones that make me confront how sad, lonely and terrible of a person I am lol.
I guess, in some ways, bad trips are also good in that they can be really quite sobering and prevent me from outright abusing the stuff.
Similarly, if it weren’t for the fact that ayahuasca tastes so fucking terrible and causes me to puke my guts out literally every single time, I reckon I’d probably consume it on the reg as I love the way it makes me feel like I’m one with everything and makes me forget who I am as an individual (not to mention all the pretty images of course). But unfortunately (or maybe fortunately), it tastes like what I imagine Satan’s bunghole probably tastes like.
I was under the impression that psychedelics can lead to ego death so an inflated ego seems strange.
It can definitely inflate ego, and people often misunderstand what ego death is (or the term can mean different things to different people).
In essence my understanding of it is that ego death is that bit when you stop having a past or future, the only thing that exists is the present existence. This is something you don’t want to continue indefinitely, but can be an experience to learn from after the fact, it can also be something that leads to trip looping if you’re not in the right environment for it.
If you’ve ever met the cliche psychedelic person whose so full of them selves, I’d say that their ego has been boosted.
Hell, I’ve experienced it whilst tripping; the feeling of having such a magical, almost holy experience that I felt Jesus-esque vibes when approaching some friends.
Also the whole feeling like you can understand anything you put your mind to is pretty ego boosting.
(Though a little confidence and some boosted ego isn’t necessarily a bad thing if you suffer from low self esteem and anxiety)