Dang, hope you’re ok.

Shit does suck but you will be surprised at your agency, looking back, however small.

I pray you mean self deletion in a digital or a metaphysical context. In which case, would recommend. Everyone needs a level of ego death to thrive. If struggling, then there are books you can read, activities to experience, drugs you can take and interesting people you can meet (therapy is great for ego death) to help shake your framing of reality.

Sending you good wishes stranger. And my fav quote recently.

“If you look for the light, you may sometimes find it. If you look for the dark, that’s all you’ll ever see.”

Your list is getting quite long but here’s another less week known movie:

Nine Days (by Edson Oda)

Nice!

I’d also like to add “Turd Reich” to the submission box.

You’re quite right! The body thankfully does have some margin before it all goes downhill. I was exaggerating a tad to emphasize the vigilance aspect.

Although I do have older aunts and uncles who do need this level of high bodily maintenance.

(Not sure on your stance on Mr C.K but this bit lives rent free in my head on this topic Soz, couldn’t find a better link)

And never stop doing it. One lapse or moment of weakness and bamm… back to the physio.

Constant vigilance 🙃

Oof the urge can whelm… stay strong!

Good luck with the business🤞 Maybe the external accountability helps keep the momentum going!

I’ve been a little intimidated by Notion due to the sheer customisation potential. However, it does seem to help folks and it’d be a shame not to have at least tried it.

You’ve nudged a fellow being towards a good habit and for that I thank you.

Haha it was a chore to finish… the urge started at 4am one night so can’t say it was a controlled acceleration either.

Ttrpgs is a fantastic hobby. So jealous. You’re working with your hands and collaboratively building with a sense of play.

Can understand things telling pointless… you’re making me question things now.

Ah yeah this constant meandering does flesh out ones personality. Lack of control is frustrating… Comes at a cost but as people said, it’s all a matter of limiting the destruction. Keep on trucking fellow traveller. Appreciate you sharing your experience

Dang… thank you for sharing. It’s really tough when certain interests literally take over your life. The time between fixations of a week feels like you’re just getting time to breathe and resurface before getting dragged down again.

It’s interesting how you’ve weaned off gaming as I find myself keep coming back to that rush of dopamine. I just change games if I’m getting bored and it becomes a never ending cycle. There is hope for me! What did you replace it with if I may ask?

Love the idea of nurturing social and outdoor projects. The act of being witnessed by others does help. And you can’t go wrong with nature!

That superficial knowledge feels like you’re building a big table of contents, good enough to reference just not enough to write the chapters. All depends on your note-taking and documentation I guess.

Maybe a suggestion regarding closure, as it helped me, was fixating on my past behaviours as it’s own research. I once spent 2 weeks just listing out my rabbit holes: what sparked it, how much time I spent and what point I went from 100-0. At least for me, I could see that the moment my brain had a clear path ahead and “progressing” on such fixation becomes a matter of just discipline/“putting the hours in”, my brain was like ‘boooring, let’s move on’. Acceleration is easy but maintaining speed is a huge challenge. Controlled deceleration is another lol. Reading other responses here reminded me that the times I felt some closure was when I had made something tangible or have it validated by others, however minimal.

Great to hear you’re becoming more aware of yourself and it’s trending towards positive. Really do appreciate hearing what has helped you.

Lol interpreting the helpful comments here, all you need to do is take a video of your attempts and keep coming back to it once a month until you become a proper popper-locker!

Appreciate your response.

That acceptance you have gained is key to managing it… And the ability to not get too excited and remembering past moments. I like that idea of setting limits on cost, whether money or time.

And yes on reflection it’s not a “superpower”. I have seen some people around me manage this disorder in a way that avoided this shallow understanding through good note taking and putting the hours in over longer periods of time. Just trying to see what strategies the folks here employ.

Your approach feels to me (correct me if wrong), about cultivating awareness to return to the present without getting too invested. You may have worked on it or it may have come naturally over time. You’ve reminded me of my lost meditation practice haha. So thank you.

I did read the book a long time back but got daunted by having to break down each project into actionable steps. The moment it went on a to do list, my interest suddenly died.

Maybe that’s a good way to limit exposure to new ideas haha.

Glad it was useful for you. Time to dust off the book and give a re-read in the hopes I’ve matured since my last time.

Thank you.

I do tend to admonish myself so yes, giving yourself a hard time is not a healthy long term strategy… need to be kinder to myself…

Having literal buckets is a lovely idea. Visible and easily accessible. I tend to gravitate towards digital rabbit holes which are harder to “complete”. Getting your hands dirty with physical objects is a great alternative.

I presume you’ve built the framework over time to try limit the number of projects you’re juggling. Glad you’re making the most of it.

Appreciate your response :)

It seems you have a good system to bookmark projects! Love the idea of a wheel, just spin it to pick your next direction. That way you’re limiting exposure to new projects while slowly progressing the existing.

Thank you for your response!

That’s a fair point. Ye are right… “superpower” is the wrong term, especially when most people feel the negatives consequences of such a disorder.

Think that term stuck as an attempt at reframing it to try take some control back over this “tendency” to meander. Either fight it or roll with it, nudging it bit by bit and as you say, limiting the damage. Thank you.

It alternatively:

“Give someone an inch and they’ll take over your kingdom”

(I know I’m misrepresenting but at least in my experience… it has happened quite a few times)

It’s scary how plausible this tweet sounds in this age. I had to frantically Google to make sure this wasn’t a true tweet haha 😅

There’s usually stuff “unspoken” and it seems the folks in power are slowly removing that veil… with minimal repercussions.

The Martyr Made podcast has a Great episode on how Cannibalism evolved into the rituals we follow today. Sin eating feels like a direct descendant.

Would recommend if you have 3+hrs!

https://www.martyrmade.com/featured-podcasts/human-sacrifice-and-cannibalism

(Spotify link) https://open.spotify.com/episode/6vycbiPKo6dddYQVYw5HLE

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My pleasure!

Ah yeah the article is somewhat circular referencing when it comes to evidence provided that having x amount of billionaires is fine and sign of a lovely healthy and beautiful society (as long as they align with party interests). It’s interesting how there’s an implicit assumption in China that there are things like reputation and power which can’t be bought by money. But yes, I see where you’re coming from.

I’m still trying to chew on your second point. It’s gotten me questioning some assumptions. Billionaires feel like an inevitable emergent property of a market mostly because there are at least 1 billion people in the world who have different estimates of “value”. I’m imagining an “ethical” billionaire who got rich creating some video game in his spare time charging folks a low $5. Would you say there’s a flaw in the society for creating such a billionaire? Maybe it’s on the backs of exploitative low cost chip manufacturers who make computers or some energy provider… or is it that the market will balance since competition will cut into the profits of the first developer which then should, in an ideal world, would curb the growth of the billionaire. If I’m reading you right, you’re claiming that there’s a threshold after which there’s implied “corruption” or collision to allow for unchecked growth?

In China’s case (at least from the article in this thread, not OP), it seems they ‘cautiously allowed’ the formation of billionaires back on the day to ‘supercharge’ the economy with that extra profit incentive. It’s what that money can buy is the big question and in which China claims to have a limit.

Thanks for engaging :)