i thought I was getting better, but I’m falling apart. I feel like a clown, I interact with people, they laugh and then turn their backs. At the end of the day I’m back here, alone, and I’m so sick.
i thought I was getting better, but I’m falling apart. I feel like a clown, I interact with people, they laugh and then turn their backs. At the end of the day I’m back here, alone, and I’m so sick.
Sorry you feel that way. Some advice from a notorious loner with serious depressive episodes:
In case you’re not: Do some exercise, regularly. It does not only help immensely with mental wellbeing but will also make you more attractive to other people
People like jokes but what they like even more is someone who shows interest in their lives. Try to find out what they like and talk to them about it
You’re not worthless just because you’re lonely. Try to find some hobbies or personal projects that are fun to do alone or may even boost your career. Many people don’t have the luxury to do whatever they want after work. Having a life of your own may even attract other people. Being independent is sexy
Don’t be afraid to make a doctors appointment and ask for help. There are MANY people with the same problem and that’s your chance to connect with them. Getting the right medication could also be a game changer