I’ve recently managed to setup a modded Skyrim install. Wanted to setup and play for months. And now… Zero. Same thing happened with bloodlines a while back.
During the day the spark of wanting to play comes. But as soon as I get home. It just disappears. And end up doing other things. It feels like wanting to play the game is more appealing than actually playing it.
How do y’all manage it?
I have this with lots of other things currently. Whenever I cannot do one of my hobbies, I will fantasize about them and come up with all kinds of ideas of what to do, but when the time comes to do them I just cannot get going and sometimes even get stressed. My brain would rather just stare at YouTube videos all day. I believe it’s our dopamine systems being completely fried due to all the easily accessible instant gratification online.
I recently read a book again for the first time in years, Dune, and I was struggling so hard in the beginning. My brain just wanted to scroll. I enjoyed the book, but nevertheless my brain wanted instant gratification and I had to resist the urge to grab my phone while reading the book. Luckily this subsided after getting a bit further.
I don’t often have this for games yet luckily. I’m currently absorbed in Hades II and no amount of brain rot can get me out of it. But it’s one of the last sacred places, and even gaming sometimes suffers this fate. There are so many gun things to do that it’s just overwhelming, whenever you do something your brain always has something else it wants to do more. Not because it actually wants it, but just because it likes the idea of it. As a kid I didn’t have all this stuff, and didn’t experience all these things, so everything I did felt special.