Read The Communist Manifesto by Marx and Engle’s, then State and Revolution by Lenin or even audiobook which are both on YouTube. Its important because they both outline the reasoning and the conviction needed. Then you’ll want to find a socialist/communist group that suits you, I’m a marxist, my ideas of socialism diverge with the appearance of Stalin. If your in the united states we have a trotskyist party who I’ve spoken to personally and theyre a good lot, your best bet would be to visit https://www.socialistworld.net/category/international/ this is the international body I work under and many other countries also work under.

Hope you find a suitable space comrade. Feel free to contact me if you need any further assistance or just to let me know how your getting on.