I can never move to Europe (West or scandanvia) or any better country cause assholes in control always want degrees and people who are good at math.
Not only that but I feel so inferior as an American. Everyday, I wish this country had never existed with how rotten and horrific it is. I sometimes think of praying to god (I dont care if you’re an edgelord atheist, don’t judge) for stuff like this or to get better at least. The only thing the US does right is its treatment of violent monsters in prisons, and even then, the system is still as shitty as the country itself.
I can’t even call myself a a christian for how badly they ruined it for us.
I’m a completely useless person so I know I dont have a chance. I am someone who only has an interest in the arts fields with ADHD. But I am interested in coding. I constantly wonder why and wish that I was born abroad instead instead of suffering in a pathetic, gross cesspit of a country. And I’m already aware of all the problems in other countries, yet I constantly wish that I was born there instead. It makes me feel so bad when I hear someone is not american cause I feel even more isolated and I have no idea why.
Even the process of moving abroad makes it seem not worth it to me so I sometimes get stuck. I just wish i was never born. I feel so inferior.
You’re depressed and depression will show you everything in the worst light. It’s trying to protect you, actually, but the system has gone haywire. It creates a reality for you where everything, including you, is bad.
You’re living a reality that is unnecessarily negative. That can change but the change has to be inside you. Moving countries won’t change it.
You need help to break the cycle. Therapy and medication can help. Even religious practice might help if you avoid the most exploitative ones (like outright cults, prosperity gospel, etc). You can join a church that does charity work and help out.
Start by just observing your negative thoughts. Every time you feel inferior just make a mental note that it’s the depression telling you that.
And get help when you’re able.
yeah exactly, i stay far away from that cult stuff hahaha. Its the reason why our reputation is screwed up as it is.