I highly recommend watching this Australian TV show, Mr Inbetween, https://m.imdb.com/title/tt7472896/
Its based in fiction, but the guy who wrote it and starred in it attempted to tell the story somewhat close to what being a career criminal and hitman would involve. Its really well done and does demonstrate that being a divorced father and career criminal can be a difficult balance.
Would anyone still love me if I was a 41,700 y/o worm? 🥺