I’m done with myself. I’m aware that I haven’t fully resolved my past problems from the childhood times, but couldn’t I have at least some peace in life. The problem with having no goals and going nowhere is already solved. I’m even very outgoing person and in control of life, but this unbearable anxiety. It’s just killing me and leaves me helpless, in the state of defenceless child. Imagination od self-harm and wanting to disappear is not possible to avoid. Just wanted to be a crybaby for a moment and not expecting any advice.