Anytime I’m having a genuinely good day I will get terrible anxiety about halfway through. Things are going too well, something has to be wrong, what am I forgetting?

ADHD leads to a whole new kind of anxiety, even when you have everything you need.

Isn’t the whole deal with anxiety that you stress about things that may or may not actually become reality?

At least for me, thats the main way I experience it.

When I was a child the priest on Sunday said that we’d go to hell or heaven when we die and that we’d stay there forever. I got very scared, I don’t want to exist forever, I find that a very scary thought.

Later once I grew up I realized that there is probably no god, so this is a non-issue for me now.

This is the reason people meditate. People have the ability to imagine stuff that doesn’t exist and may never exist or existed in the past. Think about how easy it is to remember some traumatic event from the past. Dwell on it and begin reliving it, feel the sensations as if you are present at that moment. Meanwhile, back in reality, you are safe and warm, sitting on your couch. This way of thinking is extremely common and is the gateway to depression.

Meditation works by resetting your biases so that you notice what is going on right now. It’s like a universal solvent for the mind. Don’t get me wrong, thinking is important, as a source of creativity, organisation and planning. It’s not like you can ever stop thought but it can become extremely toxic to your mental health.

I used to be anxious about my school keeping those pesky permanent records which talk about all the shit I did. I later learned that’s not what schools mean by permanent records.

No, I’m mentally stable