Is it normal to feel/become so much more egotistic/self-absorbed (maybe become more aware about how egotistical you already are?) on acid? Is it possible to minimise or outright prevent those tendencies, during trips (or even just in day to day life)? I love almost everything about acid experiences except those ones that make me confront how sad, lonely and terrible of a person I am lol.
I guess, in some ways, bad trips are also good in that they can be really quite sobering and prevent me from outright abusing the stuff.
Similarly, if it weren’t for the fact that ayahuasca tastes so fucking terrible and causes me to puke my guts out literally every single time, I reckon I’d probably consume it on the reg as I love the way it makes me feel like I’m one with everything and makes me forget who I am as an individual (not to mention all the pretty images of course). But unfortunately (or maybe fortunately), it tastes like what I imagine Satan’s bunghole probably tastes like.
Check out Santo Daime. When group behavior is the reference point, your conscious choice to harmonize with the group can help relieve varieties of self-centeredness including feeling entitled, lack of connection, and internal conflict. If your experience of psychedelics is only individual exploration then you have not had a chance to appreciate their full transformative potential.