Shit she’s going to know I’m high…
Funny story, this is one of the major reasons I filed for divorce.
That… wasn’t funny at all!
No, it sure wasn’t!
It is now!
Yes! That’s what I was hoping for!
Maybe they were married to a clown?
Why were you married to your mom?
Insert “deliverance” banjo music here.
Got you
What would life be like if you could file for other people’s divorces?
When it comes to parents, it’s just called disowning.
Honestly, not a bad idea. A lot of people who should be divorced aren’t because they feel they’ve invested too much into it. People outside of that can see more clearly.
Have you ever told a funny family story and everyone around you recoils in horror?
you learn not to after a while.
Like when our dog died, my dad tanned the hide, wore it as a cape, and played with the other dog?
Sounds like that qualifies.
We all have our own contexts for what is “normal.”
Yeah same. Filed two weeks ago.
Good for you. Hang in there, it’s worth it.
Can’t believe you were with my ex you ol stud 😏
😂
some of my earliest memories are lying in bed in terror waiting for the sound of my abusive fathers work truck to pull into the driveway. I got to where like a dog i could identify his specific truck as soon as it was in audible range. Sometimes I could pretend to be asleep and I might get left alone a while.
It’s many decades later, I live in a very safe place and the patriarch who rules the roost here doesn’t even raise his voice much less hit me. All the same i get a sharp spike of fear every time he pulls up in the driveway. It took me a few years of work and therapy to be able to stay downstairs and not have to flee upstairs when he got home.
It’s shameful how many people’s first bullies are the people they need to look to for safety. It really breaks you.
I had a similar reaction when I heard our garage door open when my father got home.
“save the traditional nuclear family” my ass
if i had the chance to flee home as a teenager and live somewhere else, i absolutely would have done. even if it meant living among strangers.
Replace mom with dad, and this is my childhood.
You don’t know trauma unless you’ve been raised by a bipolar narcissist with anxiety and anger issues. My dad was a master at sucking all the energy out of a room and ruining the vibe with his selfish, fear-mongering bullshit.
Same here and it all starts with them opening a door and walking in. I hate that I still think about that feeling in my 30’s.
Know how you feel. I’m almost 40, and even though my dad has been dead for 5 years now, the feeling still won’t go away. The PTSD is so bad that loud voices startle me, and I can’t use a computer if someone is looking over my shoulder.
My dad taught me how to lie and obsess over privacy so I wouldn’t feel his wrath. I should be in therapy.
Nothing teaches you to sneak around better than an angry/violent parent. I learned how to walk around the creaky house at night silently and without a light on. Stay strong fellow lemmy 💪
My dad treated me like a boxing bag for the slightest transgression.
I once squatted for an entire night. Squatted. Because at dusk, I was gaming in the middle of a room with a very creaky floor and then darkness fell. I was expected to be in my own room, and now I was trapped. Had to turn off the console as to not make any noise or quick movement.
Had my parents found out, they’d have flat out killed me, and that’s not an exaggeration.
Oh, and apart from the constant physical and mental abuse, I was never allowed to leave the house except for going to school, and couldn’t make any phone call exceeding one minute.
I got out of it eventually, but it took a lot of healing. My siblings’ lives are still completely ruined, though.Jesus, that’s some monstrous behavior. Glad you got out, I’m hoping your siblings can do the same.
my wife never understood how I could walk around our 100+ year old house without making a sound.
she brought it up one Christmas and my sister told her, “you know why that is, right? because dad was a light sleeper and would have beat our asses to death if he woke up.”
it really put it in perspective for my wife hearing that from my sister and not just me.
I’m on meds now, and it makes the anxiety manageable.
I have done the same thing, freaks some ppl out being 6’1. Your sister was right too, light sleeper fathers = beating being had, which is an odd thing since that act would wake them up way more then a creaky floor. Glad to hear I’m not alone though. It makes me feel better knowing there are other silent walkers out there :) is the anxiety bad some days?
it used to be. my kids can be loud and I was constantly on edge. it became a problem when I started yelling at them. I realized I was starting to do to them what had happened to me.
After a year of trying I was finally able to get a Dr to prescribe some meds and it’s been so much better. I’m not nearly as jumpy or quick to anger anymore.
feel like I can finally be a better dad than I had.
I’m glad you finally got the help you needed. Shame it took longer then it needed to but ya know how doctors are. You gotta be dying or near death before they wanna help out, I want to change my doctor for that exact reason.
👋 hello trauma sibling
We had a long driveway. I quickly learned how to position myself to be able to see out the window and prepare before being seen.
That was also around the same time I learned how to quickly make a bug-out bag, a bit of cryptography(My dad and I had a code language, just in case), and just how far I can be pushed before physical response is my only response.
There isn’t enough therapy in the world.
Oof. Hope things are better for you and your dad
Mostly, yeah. He’s practically getting to live his dream these days, after going through a pretty long rough patch.
I’m still untangling things, in my own way, but I can also recognize the strides I’ve been able to make with it. It’s taken many a long year to get to the point where even talking about it didn’t leave me shaking in anger or fear, and I consider that a major improvement. Shaking off the last shadows from the monster.
This is how I knew I didn’t live in a happy home. My brother and I got along well when our father was not around. (I wouldn’t say he was an abusive father. Just not a person anyone enjoys being around for extended time. He’s an ex military man who’s life was too rough for anyone to come out happy. And emotionally cold.)
Pretty much same here, but dad was a cop. And not emotionally cold, which made it probably a different kind of fucked up. (Got both the I-love-yous and the getting-taken-care-of and the familial-physical-proximity, but then also got the “I’mma teach you <x> by screaming at you”, “insulting and shaking you when you fail”, and the “SHUT UP I’M TRYING TO WATCH THE NEWS” during dinners.)
I’m pretty sure this is one of the reasons why today, as a grown ass adult, I just wish to stay at home by my wholesome / with the SO and never call my friends and family. I’m just content… nay, I’m hanging to my calm and peace with my life, to the point of it being a problem.
This. And my family is like, why do you never come around???
Spend 20 minutes with them, “you still dating her?! We think dating outside the race and a trans women… We just don’t agree.”
Me “whelp, This has been fun. I’ll see yall never.”
Had to have the landlord come and fix a relatively minor issue with our shower. About lost my mind making sure the place looked presentable for him to fix something he’s responsible for. Trauma sucks
I’ve talked to a lot of people from all walks of life, and I’ve come to realize that one of the main things that sets people apart in adulthood is whether they were loved as kids. Those that were, and those that weren’t, might as well come from different planets. It’s so bad I very much go out of my way to avoid the topic.
They: Yeah I didn’t always get along with my parents.
Me: So… how often did they beat you up?
They: Oh no, they never beat me. But my mother criticized me a lot, and my dad moped, sometimes.
Me: :-|
They: I’m kinda traumatized from all this.
Me: So… where did you spend last Christmas?
They: Well, among other things, I visited my parents, of course.
Me (who has cut of all communication for many years): o_OI’d urge you to give those who experienced a different upbringing than you the compassion you feel you deserve.
It’s all relative and our traumas are relative too, to act as if you’re trauma is more than others is unfair to them and yourself if you expect people to give a shit about yours.
The key enter the front door, and shit’s about to get real.
Those kids are literally me whenever anyone in the building makes a noise.
Man, my poor daughter.
This was her life. When her mom died she dealt with the guilt that followed her relief.
Having known her mom all of my life and seen everything she went through as a child, I wish some kind of ghost of Christmas past could take my daughter and show her so she can see that her mom wasn’t always like that. That at one time she was a little girl waiting on the day she could escape her own mom. At one point she was young and a lot like her.
I always figured they’d get it right when she grew up, but she never got that chance.
FUCK CANCER. Seriously.
You know the truth and you can keep that alive.
I guess this is only funny if you were not abused as a kid.
Ehm, I think the abuse is the joke. But the coming home part is just a stereotype (apart from drinking). The abusers I experienced become violent if slightly provoked or just randomly.
I had a roommate that asked me if I was funny or had a happy childhood.
Neither.
Change that to partner when you’ve been working from home
When you hear your parents and sibling arguing in the house, and quickly take your phone out and open the dialer app “just in case”
Honestly feel this… Will say for how much being a teenaged girl sucked I did learn the power of gaslighting and peer pressure which helped a lot. My dad and mom were always brawling with my sister and after it got used on me by my peers I realized since my dad was a momma’s boy I could always threaten to tell my grandma, my mom was a religious nut so I could always bring up the devil and as long as I rearranged their arguments as “you’re the crazy person” they couldn’t figure out how to say shit back and would go away. I mean…still got bullied in winterguard, but weirdly helped my home life.
(If you want to know my sister unfortunately died at 30 of natural causes, I’m practically NC with my dad and my mom found a religious cult who helped her with anger management so we’re mostly cool now + she’s no longer in the cult cause one of them claimed to curse her with a demon so worked out somehow…)
You tryina call CPS on your parents? Must be bad 💀
Welcome to the world of being an Indigenous Canadian teen in a non-Indigenous city in the 1990s … where you either get wrongly arrested, or you develop a sixth sense for the police
