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migraines
got a migraine with no aura somehow and it fucking sucks even though i took my usual medication. different part of my head than usual hurts. I shouldnt be looking at screens because the light physically hurts me but sitting in the dark is so boring
trying to get back into
with a little modded SA 2. I’ve 100% it before on the ps3 (decent port imo since it’s basically the dreamcast version). Got the Windii retranslation, full story mode, general qol improvements and some chao garden modes. I wanna get 100% on steam but fuck me I don’t wanna have to wait for days on end just to raise and breed the perfect chao again. I honestly prefer Adventure 1 more but already 100% that one and now doing this to just get the steam achievement and slowly get back into the storybook games again.dysphoria
Why do I simultaneously worry about never being able to fit perfectly into a binary gender ideal, while at the same time idolizing gender-blurring in others? I find androgyny in people so incredibly appealing and attractive. When I think about my voice, frame, etc. never being fem enough, however, it bothers me a little. Self-love and self-acceptance is hard.
I’m feeling exhausted and burned out. I feel like I need to let my emotions out somehow but can’t, which is even more exhausting. I’m also getting a bad rash and my hands and arms which I think is stress related. I hate this but I’ll get through it. I haven’t been as active in the mega threads lately, but I hope everyone is doing ok. Hopefully after this week I’ll have some downtime to chat in tracha and get my nerf blaster assembled.
Being trans still doesn’t feel real even though I have to habitually wear bras to prevent my boobs from being annoying and can no long lie down on my chest.
I think it’s just that I haven’t made any real progress in the past few months. And even some of the progress I made (growing out my hair) was undone by my parents (forcing me to cut it).
But it’s fine. At least taiwan is fun. Here, I can eat food without going into debt (this is not a joke. I’m actually in debt for my living expenses in europe).
Cut my fucking finger nail shaving today.
Also love thought loops that are genuinely just true. Like sometimes a little bit exaggerated but overall pretty darn accurate. Fuck.
Long rant cw: dysphoria
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So I did order from dash and paid but since I don’t think the person saw it , I don’t have the vial. Feel awful about it, I did everything with the wise transfer , taking a while. Feel as though it’s too late , it should’ve came earlier but it didn’t and now everything fucking sucks
I have no choice, I need to buy every isometric city builder game from the late 90s to mid 2000s. It’s the only way
I still don’t know what a lububu is and frankly I think it’s funny people just be making up terms and pretending like they real
i dislike all the talk of community in my irl circles. Shit doesnt exist.
I would like to never be perceived again… I just… I do not want to ever do a social thing ever again. Im so tired of feeling completely alone and isolated even when surrounded by so-called community. There is no queer community, no trans community. Theres just a bunch of somewhat-overlapping social groups. And ya girl is not good at integrating/being part of them. Like, the message is clear: people do not want to talk to me. I dont understand why, and i try to be social, but god, i had two utter failures of social situations in as many days, and the common denomenator is me. Im not supposed to have friends or be included in social groups…
My wife is so spicy she pissed off the local character who sent us an angry message claiming that we hate women (shes a radfem.) I’m like “😩nooooo” but my wife is over here crying from laughter and plans to leave her on read.
rant time :3
can people stop saying “protect trans youth” just to turn around and do everything in their power to exclude trans youth? trans youth have been having it worse and worse because there exists literally no community for trans youth, online or offline. treating youth like less than human and isolating them just leads to trauma, anxiety, depression, and normalizes oppression. its the part of the reason why things are so bad today. stop playing into a conservative narrative you KNOW is bullshit. when y’all get old and become unsuit for activism, there’s a chance that there won’t be anyone to replace you, because no one supported the next generation of queer people. how do you ever hope to band together if you actively exclude the new generation? if the very groups that they belong in don’t actually want them until they’re “old enough”? we need to remember that if we don’t support the next generation, we’re the ones to be erased from history, because the next gen are the people to hold the torch.
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I feel so lonely. I’ve ruined my only friendship and it feels impossible to make new ones that i won’t also end up ruining. I thought that starting hrt would make my life better but nothing had changed, im still depressed and I’m even lonlier than i was before.
Messaged my cousin two days ago- no word yet. Guessing she just doesn’t check instagram much.
i think i’m transitioning into a child instead of a woman, one tsa guy asked if I was 18, and another asked if I was 13 🫠
Estrogen really is a youth elixir and this old grandma (me) feels like she’s in her 20s again. I wonder if we could use this to our advantage, like, with mass trans-ing the aging techbros by convincing them that E is a “smart drug” and the latest in “anti-aging technology”.
microdosing estrogen to become a better programmer
I miss getting mistaken for a kid
The estrogen is definitely doing something, though. People routinely think I’m like 10 years younger than I am.The one upside of transitioning my 30s is the fat redistribution filling in my wrinkles is better than any Botox etc, I look much smoother,
