Y’know, when I signed up for this back in June I had grand plans for some grand writeup on the domestically produced unmagnified gunsights of Cuba. I had collected images and info and sources but I lost sight of it as life stuff happened and my time for the trans mega snuck up on me.
Que sera sera.
Anyways, today felt like the first whisper (you have no idea how hard I just thought about the ideal word for this metaphor) of autumn and that put me in the mood for one of my favorite autumnal albums. More Constant Than the Gods by SubRosa is a really lovely doom? sludge? metal album. I like how big it sounds. The lead vocalist is a really talented lady, and its got violins, also the lyrics talk about dying and stuff and I’m into that. Its very fall-y to me, as is Standard Time Volume 1 by Wynton Marsalis, but for extremely different reasons.
The funny thing is that, like the poster of the previous mega it is also my 5th transiversary, I started HRT half a decade ago today (ok technically it was the 17th but I’m gonna count it since thats when I started writing this). Now, I don’t think that taking HRT was what made me “officially trans”, rather it was the degree of self acceptance required to get to that point. It’s a long story, and one I prefer to share privately, but it took a very, very long time before my fear and desperation gave me the strength to allow myself to have this. I think it all turned out pretty well, I experience existence in much higher fidelity, I’m this whole person, along with everything that entails.
I feel very blessed to be transgender.
I hope you all stay safe and have a good, or atleast tolerable week.
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hey pals, I’m back looking for some medical advice
my DIY HRT finally seems to be going well - I’m at the levels of T and E that I want to be on!
But something else has popped up that I’m a little worried about - my SHBG (sex hormone binding globulin) is above the normal range. From a little bit of reading transfemscience.org it seems like both estrogen and anti-androgens increase the amount of SHBG. So I’m thinking because my levels are where they need to be I should ease up on the anti-androgens, because I’ve heard that once estrogen is at a decent level it’s harder to throw off the balance.
I guess I just want to check if my reasoning through this situation is ok and I’m not missing anything important
thanks for reading thisThis twinky lab tech is cute af
I have a new friend who is a cis woman who I’ve known for a few months. She was discussing with another new female friend of mine, how they’ve not shaved their legs for winter. I said oh I haven’t either but I’ve done laser and showed my legs under my skirt that had only some patchy hairs. both were like wow that’s less than I’ve got, we should try that etc
I also mentioned that finasteride, spironolactone, estrogen were all helping reduce my body hair too, as well as increasing my long thick head hair. The friend revealed she knew about those medications because she had alopecia that affected her head and presumably her long feminine hair is a wig (I wasn’t gauche enough to ask).
And I was like huh, I’m always comparing myself to cis women for my body issues, but cis women have their own body issues and battles going etc. We’re all subject patriarchal standards of beauty and femininity etc
Which has really helped a bunch of my brainworms
Good post o7
I KNOW!!!
One shift I was on, every other woman didnt have a uterus and was on the same exact meds I was for HRT!! Its so common
I have to say, I really love you people.
hey everyone, welcome to the first post i make while on my brand new not peeing the bed journey. unfortunately i’m only announcing the series today but i plan to start tomorrow
<-- Covered in pee
Turning on my queer laser it gives everyone that isn’t queer a mild and slightly itchy sunburn
caffeine got me like
not sure what the other thing is that makes me feel super fatigued and shitty but it’s… probably time to stop drinking soda regardless due to the heartburn 
Destroy everything and rebuilding is such an intoxicating feeling
Family? Fuck family
Me: good thing happened!
Parent: nice, talks about how good thing is all gonna go away soon anyway, uses ableist slur
Me: gets upset, says to stfu, and lays out why that shit is wrong and why im upset
Parent: i dont deserve to be talked to like that.
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Its so hot here im dyingggggg god why does the sun exist it shouldnt exist just go away already
My ability to gas light myself is amazing, I was just thinking damn I spend way too much time inside I don’t even remember going outside for months and I literally been at the park every day for 2 weeks now. I’m gonna use this chat I’m gonna be great I’m gonna achieve real Quixote status levels of swagger.
misogyny
thought my friendship with one of my cishet guy friends that was going roughly was on the mend, actually had gotten to the point where I had started to trust him again
then he decided to spend all of today constantly failing the Be Normal About Women challenge. I feel so fucking gross from being in the same space as him. guess that’s what I get for assuming a cishet dude could be anything other than a slimeball.
Locking in is such a good phrase, “come on lock in” is my mental mantra now when I need to focus.
our cat destroyed our headphone cable and we had to pay obscene next day shipping costs because we cant exist without our headphones
*dies*
