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  • Time travel wouldn’t be by jumps but by contionous change in perpendicular* time dimension.

    So earth wouldn’t escape from your feet as you would move with it, just like you are doing right now with just one dimension.

    *time travel would be imposible if you can move only in positive direction. Then the 2nd time dimension would need to be under some funky angle (3/4π>α>1/2π and α≠π and α≠0) i am wrong

    Edit: After some thought, to truly time travel the second dimension would need to be parallel to the original one but backwards. So some people would be living in reverse time. (I have seen that concept in Sci-Fi)

    Still the perpendicular time dimension is too funky of a concept to truly give it up.



  • The List is always a subject to change:

    • Change a job
    • Go on a date
    • Grow spiritually and go back closer to God
    • Go back to university to learn something that I actually enjoy (Programming) + move to another town

    My life is divided by relese sheadule of anime seasons.

    As fall 2024 is ending and winter 2025 is beginning, I want to set myself a theme so I can grow in a particular direction in the next 3 months.

    I am not really sure right now what should I prioritise as all those things are important.

    I am currently working in a trash job with trash money on a non-existing contract. I long for a touch of another human being. I feel empty without God and the uncertanity of supporting myself during studies is making me anxious.

    All those things I have sacraficed maitainance on, so I could work on more fundamental problems. And now as I have mostly solved the problem that caused to dropout of Uni twice, I don’t know what to work towards for the next 3 months.








  • Is there anything I can do?

    Yes, lot of stuff that you can’t even think about.

    Your mind is playing tricks on you. It manipulates reality into an image that seems hopless and for you its the true state of the world.

    Step 0 is to find safe space.

    For starters I began with walking out of the house as much as possible (walks, riding a bike, hanging out in the libraries and malls to not freeze during wintrer)

    Find minimum wage job that you can hold for a longer amount of time so you can earn money to try and rent a room somewhere to escape from your house.

    Then you can proceed into step number one, where therapy and medication begin to work as you have safe space to go back to every day.

    There maybe a possibility to convince your parents to send you away into the university and to live in cheap dorm rooms where you could escape from home and back in your healing journey.





  • For me diary is an emotional outlet to process emotions. So I usually write how do I feel and what caused it.

    I also write medical anomalies that happen in my life that is highly likely that I will forget them.

    e.g. runny nose from hay fever(?)

    I am a person that dosn’t form habits so I write when It strikes me fancy and I don’t feel guilty that I don’t do it everyday.

    Sometimes I write a really oustanding event that is a contender for my TOP 10 days of my life (I have seperate file in my digital diary for them)

    I also have separate files for writing about a topic I am reaserching and thinking about.

    Every quarter I also review last 3 months and set myself theme for the next three months.