Yeah, the commitment can be tough! I will say that muscle memory is a big part of learning any instrument, so if you naturally rely on it, I don’t think that’s bad. I am not a teacher, but I got really good at guitar and saxophone when I was younger; so I feel comfortable sharing my thoughts on reading, muscle memory, etc.
If you keep playing and build up your memorization skills, that is a very good thing IMO. Reading is important too, but maybe you don’t have to get really good at everything all at once?
Also, remember to have fun! 😊
On a general note, I as a fellow ADHD-haver, I have found that a consistent mindfulness pracrice has been a game changer for my focus. Have you tried mindfulness meditation or had a mindfulness practice? Playing music and reading music are both very mindful activities, so building your “mindfulness muscle” could be a good way to help you stay in the moment and not get lost!





Thank you 🥹